Friday, February 25, 2011

Death certificates and autopsies...

So much of the past 8 weeks seems real at times and then not real at all. I have heard that sighing is a sign of grieving and many times a day without warning I just let out a big sigh. Not one thing can lead to the sigh, sometimes a picture a simple thought of Kev can bring it on.
We did get his death certificate and I went yesterday to pick up his autopsy report. Again almost as if I am reading this about someone else, someone unknown to me. Many things upset me about the autopsy itself, the fact they did that to his body looked inside at his brain his organs, I really thought I might throw up yesterday. I don't know if it was a mistake or not but Alex wanted to read it and I let her. She said she felt faint after reading certain parts of it. Like I said this is hard to realize that this report was about kev.
Good to know all his organs were fine, lungs, liver etc...just his heart that did not work they way it was supposed to.
I am looking forward to our trip to Fl in April, and then after that hopefully our house sells and Alex and I can move forward.

1 comment:

Carol said...

I know it didn't really help or put you at ease seeing the autopsy, nor did it give you the closure you were searching for. I also know that you have quite a daunting task ahead of you. We are all here for you, and like I've said many times before, we wish we could be there to help you every step of the way. Kevin was a wonderful husband and father and you will always have him and his memories in your heart. He will travel through the rest of your life with you, in spirit. We can't wait for you all to come in April! We're planning warm temps and sunshine for ya! Love you!!